Leaving my mentally ill friend..

And this is precisely why he wrote this blog. A man of conscience who would like to do the right thing but also needs to look after his own well being. Not a good place to be in but sometimes life will test you.

 

Right said

 

Your right I will not forget her, that's why in the past I always ended up going back again. Wishing she has changed, but she will never change.. And I'll just be stuck in a loop.. this is a very fucked up statution. What makes this even harder is that she trys to call me everday..

 

It's really shocking man. You did it right.

 

Actually, I was have some similar situation like you when I was teenager. I become a best friend and I didn't know he is a gay. I mean, I've been heard rumors about him, but I never believe in that.

We was been a friends a couple of years till one day we decide to watch movies, but unlike before, he told me to come alone. I know it's awkward situation, but I still wasn't believe that hi is gay.

When the movie start, he comes next to me and hug me, because he feel very cold. In that moment I decide to leave immediately with some stupid reason...

 

You were unprepared and you were young. You did what you did at the time and reacted the way you thought was best. In retrospect you may have behaved differently. It still bothers you yes? You might have been better served if you had explained to him that you are straight, and if he wishes to remain your friend then he needs to respect that and not cross certain boundaries. Ever think about maybe calling him up just to see how he is doing?

 

Oddly enough, I've been in the same situation. The only difference is that we are already adults when it happened, so things escalated quickly The good thing, however, is that we didn't avoid each other when things got awkward. We still hang out. If anything, we try to avoid sleep overs as much as possible LOL

Going back to the topic, things aren't looking good. and it is not too big of a deal if you part yourself from your (mentally ill) friend OP. Your conscience may haunt you, as to why you have left him in his time of need(?) But as it is, you already have given a lot. Give yourself a break, you need it and you deserve it.

 

I agree with you. People have different opinions and a view of life when they are younger. I have this experience 10 years ago and I never really think how a I will act if this will happens to me again.

By the way, this was bothering me till the day we meet each other in a random situation. Honestly, I don't have problem to talk with him, but I have different way of the things when we talk about gays. I don't recognized them as a minority. We are born as male and female, according to the law of nature and every person who is not satisfied with her sexuality, then he has a problem (who can be solve it). Even the science now think that.

I meet him before few weeks and we was talking, but I know and he knows that there is a big distance between me and him.

 

Haha dude, I like your words. But, knowing myself in that age, it's okay that the things don't escalated. My temper was very hard for control when I was teenager. I was having problems with that.

Plus, in that period I was have 3 time's gay experience and maybe I learn to control myself. If this is happens to me know, I just ignore the situation and I will wish him a good luck in his life.