I'm nervous and sad...

Well my mom passed away from cancer on wednesday. My 13 year old sister is taking it much better than me (I'm 16 and male). She was closer with her...

The memorial is today and I have to read from the book "I'll love you forever" or something... the one by Robert Munsch with the baby and the toilet paper on the front. She used to read it to me when I was young. I was with my friends today and I read what she wrote in it for me when I turned 5... I pretty much broke down crying.

I have to read one page of it at the memorial and I'm absolutely sure that I will start crying. I haven't fully grieved or anything... I want to but yeah... I start crying every time I think about her. I know she's gone and I manage to think about that fine but if I think ABOUT her then I start...

 

oh! my prayers goes with you ....

 

Taylor, smyrl is right take it one day at a time--time is the key issue.. grieve on your own time, we all grieve differently!!!! Support your sisters needs and i and many others on this DP board will be praying for you,Lore. Huggggggssssss, hugggggssssss and more huggggggsssssss.
Take Care!

 

You are 16 years old and already you have experienced what most of us dread. Your loss is heart-felt and no words from strangers can really fix that just yet. You will in time heal and when you do your world will open before you. You will find strength, more than you can possibly imagine right now.

Your memories of her will help her live within your mind and everytime you achieve something great, smile to her and know that she would, does approve and the love you shared will always stay with you.

Live a good life, look after your sibling, remember there is so much for you to do.

Take care and best wishes to you and yours.

 

So would anyone else with half a heart.

Sorry to hear the bad news, Taylor. It's going to hurt for a long time...I'm truly sorry.

 

Taylor, Iam sorry.

I know how you feel. I lost without father and younger brother. It is hard time for you. Maybe, this moment is for help your familly. Think on them, help them. Be with them.

Your mom would be proud on you for reading it. Your sister would be. You would be. If you need to cry, do it. Push your emotions. Dont strugle with them. Be there, in present, not in thinking.

All that you experiencing now, could make you better. You can find lot of things. Now you must climb on hill, where road of your life going.

 

sorry to hear that m8, hope all goes well with the memorial service.

 

Hey sorry to hear that, all of us go through these moments and its very hard to deal with them. I still cry about the loss of someone very special about 4 years ago now... it always hurts... crying is normal just dont get depressed :/

 

Yeah I'm actually somebody who shows their emotions very well. Thanks for all your words of kindness guys.

I just got back... 6-9. It wasn't a funeral - something where people come and pay their respect. Saw a lot of people I haven't seen in years. Funny that I remember them though.

I cried a bit but I don't have to read that thing until tomorrow.

I forbade all my friends even my best friend from coming. I forbade my entire school from coming (teachers and stuff). They complied. One of my really good friends showed up with his mother and boy was I glad. It was boring and we were about two hours and 15 minutes into it. Had a lot of coffee but I was wrong to not let him come and I am so damn happy he did. The rest zoomed by.

The "celebration of life" aka funeral is tomorrow. That's when I speak. I invited my friend as I know it's a good idea to come. Plus we are going to hang out afterwards.

All in all - went a lot better than I expected.

 

God bless you, everything will be fine amigo

 

my prayers and sypathy goes to you and your family.. I hope everything works out fine!

 

Thanks .

 

So sorry to hear of your loss.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this awful time.

Chin up, lad. <3

 

I will pray for you and your family bro.

 

Condolence and be brave!!

Ill include your mom on my daily prayers

 

My condolences to you and your family..

Be strong!!

 

Really sorry to hear about your huge loss. My Deepest condolences and sympathy for you.

 

Oh that's sad. BE STRONG TAYLOR..

 

Let your emoctions out! I will pray for you. And you will get through it